Time Marches On...

It has been more than 8 weeks since my angel earned his wings. I guess/think I am doing okay. I think about my son everyday, many times a day, sometimes with such joy, sometimes with saddness, and sometimes with a feeling of injustice. I know that is normal. Although I still sometimes feel as if my life is surreal, I also know that I am getting one day closer everyday to what my form of acceptance will be. Right now I don't know that I will ever truly accept what happened only because of the injustice of it all. I know that I will come to terms with what "my plan" is from God, but right now still a bit angry. I may have mentioned before that a friend told me blogging could be very theraputic. I would have to agree. My son will be remembered forever, and this is one outlet for me to use to disuss one of the most important people in my life.

Positive Things in my life:

We are in the middle of moving... that part is not pleasant, but I am so excited!! We are building a house in Clarksville, TN and I will FINALLY have all of my possessions in one house. It has only been 3 years... I am very excited to start something new and have many things to look forward to. Our home will be 1800 sq. ft, my dog finally gets a backyard, and we will have enough room to have many friends and family come and visit. One thing I know for sure is how much I depend on my friends and family. With out them, I would be lost, and I am so very blessed.

My husband and I are happier in our marriage than we have ever been, and I know this is due to Jonathan. I was not granted the gift of life of my son, but I was granted the gift of communication and appriciation with my husband. I was granted the gift of priorities and more love from my support system than I thought imaginable. So many people have done so many very incredible things for us, and I am more grateful than ever to have "my people".

I will check in again soon. It is all a process, and I thank anyone and everyone for reading this...

All my love...